Thursday, December 30, 2004
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Summertime wasting
Away our lives
Flying through
Aeroplane dreaming
About the good things
Hidden behind the clouds
And you said,
"Every cloud has a silver lining
Every day has a fiery dawn
Everyone gets a new beginning."
And that's just so like you.
Eventide drinking
From a glass
A cup of malted
Whiskey burning
Away all common sense
With warm liquid fire
And you said,
"Every cloud has a silver lining
Every day has a fiery dawn
Everyone gets a new beginning."
And that's just so like you.
Afternoon crying
Through the farewell
Service of a father
You knew him complete
You've lost it completely
The light in your eyes is gone.
And you said,
Nobody lives forever
Every day has a blood soaked end
Nobody really accomplishes anything."
And that is so unlike you.
Sunday chafing
Under a sermon
You get up to go
The preacher calls your name
In a tear soaked confession
Life begins again.
And he said,
"Every cloud has a silver lining
Every day has a fiery dawn
Everyone gets a new beginning."
And I sat down and thought,
That's just so like you.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Run from the past
That's nipping at our heels
Through the root infested jungle
To the hut out on the plains
Laugh your lovely trill
Take the pen and quill
There we shall find a place
In the hut out on the plains
Nestled between sheltring hillsides
The time shall appear
For the airing of thoughts
And passing of cards
Flash those perfect brown eyes
At me one more time
I am already dancing
To such a merry tune
But booted feet carry away
The last remnant of time
Of refreshedness through exhaustion
In the hut on the plains.
Tomorrow's another bus trip
And another new year's day
And with the comet coming
It's time to get away
To another local venture
Venting local public pride
We find ourselves caught up in
What we've always denied
Jumping tax on the kitchen floor
While the paint is drying still
We cavalcade past the neighbours
In our royal-black mobile
Freedom's vicious scent
Is clinging like the weather
But it's a moment
Spent together.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Come again this bright star
Burning on the horison
And take away this mortal pain
Take away this sorrow day
Till tommorrow strikes again
Total lapse of imagination
We are parked up by the yellow lines
The ticket meter slowly ticking
Dictates now the coming times
We float away
To another station
And look behind
To see we are dearly departed
It looks like the end is coming
It looks like a crashing comet
Will deliver us to death
Tingling things on your wristband
Are calling out our names
Shall we answer, do we dare?
Is the truth a tireless hunter
Then what have we to fear?
We float away
To another person
And tell him all our pains
He bends his back to heal us
And weld us whole again
Fit and fanciful mindings
Will end up on the trashheap
As we climb askance this
Rickety shelter
And watch the falling sky
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Tonight is in another climate
Tonight is in another world
In the footsteps of a stranger
Hides another point of view
Inside my eyes inside my mind
I sit and stare at you
Unsubcontious
Unbenownst
Till time and tides
Redeem our hosts
The glitter dance
I choose to witness
Shall bear silent testimony
That I was never there.
All the light in the sky
All the sun in this world
Hasn't a shine on you
All that might be in my life
All the thoughts that I hide
Hang on you
I just cannot tell you what I'm feeling
It is a fourhundred foot drop
And I'm hanging by the skin of my teeth
Knowing you're not standing beneath
Piece by piecemeal
I crumble into dust
When you occlude my vision
In life you have to
Be a go-getter
But I cannot get you
I just cannot tell you what I'm feeling
It is a fourtundred foot drop
And I'm hanging by the skin of my teeth
Knowing you're not standing beneath
You are someonelse's treasure
And I laugh to see you smile
In the shadows hide my feelings
Unless our worlds collide
All the light in the sky
All the sun in this world
Hasn't a shine on you
It would pinnicle my day
If you would glance my way
But I'll sit ill-content and watch you.
Friday, December 17, 2004
A seasoned conversation starter
I've nothing more to say
She weighs in like a funeral
I blink and turn away
Summer laughs like an only child
Beneath its warm embrace
I swelter like the damned
And stoop to hide my face
Will you show me where I've gone wrong
Where I've missed the mark?
Was I born to fall so short
And never rise again?
There's depths to depthless eyes
And truth I cannot know
Like siamese twins conspire
Another sucker-punch blow
I know you never realised
That's only made it worse
Before you go, I'd like to say
Forever is a curse
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Stirring trance music
Grips everything
In its glittered embrace
While stick people
Gyrate to the salted rythmes
And the lightning lights
Reduce reality
To a stream of snapshots
And the noise
In the distant background
Is my friend
Sharing the scarred leather seat
And enlivened
By the taste of dissolution
As past and future
Melt into a cohesive whole
And leave nothing
To the imagination.
Friday, December 10, 2004
Images of you
Supplanted
And vortexed
Through translucent
Dreaming of the past's
Bright futures
Of a day in the sun
With the land at your back
And the ocean at your feet
Or a dinner hot on the table
But it's all washed away
Like so many tears
When you lie on the bed
And give up your last breath
And are gone.
Monday, December 06, 2004
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Monday, November 29, 2004
Blank angel-face dancing before me
Like a kaleidoscope of broken dreams
And promises on the lawn
Another yesterday's argument
And she says "Sorry till next time,
I'll make it up to you,
Till next time"
Breakfast in bed, or a slave labour day
Currents lurking beneath, its difficult to say
Which way the wind is blowing
And whether she's turned away
And she says "See you later"
Silhouetted by light
She is gone.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
The quiet children on my floor
With bovine eyes they close the door
And leave me all alone once more.
Inside a TV leaps to view
Almost old and almost new
Hiding from the naked truth
Through the ceiling dusts a thud
The neighbours screaming out for blood
The tranquil pool is churned to mud
Out the lift and down the street
Gutters cleanse my sinful feet
And those of friends I've yet to meet
Splashing through the parking lots
Of executives and city cots
In a shower of heaven-send drops
Till at last silence once more
Capsuled by the oaken door
Frees the pity kept in store
For the quiet children on my floor
Friday, November 19, 2004
Polymorphism
Take him to the show
Bowing and waving
Eyes shut stride forwards
Embrace the silent crowd
How many modes?
Vibrating through time
Waterskiis and electrolyte
To battery power success.
The day is long
And I am lost
To polymerise infinity
And pour it into the sea.
The pamphlet woman
Cowled in shadow
Spoke double math.
Rotate your life
A vision in blue
I am the knife
A vision of you
Drives me to sleep
To the hum of the
Engine
The weather never
Halts its weary tred
And shivering in extacy
My footsteps echoed by the sea
I'm silhouetted
By the wounds I've bled
Those silent happy memories
Are slipping now away from me
The days bleed by
In parties all night long
The words that spoke of innocence
Are lying dusty on the shelf
A simple smile
A shoulder to cry on
Are long departed: Rest in peace
I'll wake you no more from your sleep
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Monday, November 15, 2004
Clouds crowd growling
At the muffled passers by
Footsteps slowly eaten
By the cottoned mist of rain
Eyes wide open
A concrete and metal
Testament to the enduring
Human surprise
Computer humming
Behind a flashing screen
Eyes turn to measure time
And back to work again.
Friday, November 12, 2004
The sailor made the weather
Like a feather dancing on the end of his cap
Aghast against the ocean
His devotion like a river of molten life
That teemed into his dreams
Bursting at the seams with a holy, zealous fire
Till atlast it bubbled over
This naval rover could no more stand its sting
He took the final plunge
A desperate lunge at the quiet on the far side of dreams
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
It all depends
On midnight treats
Where lamplight falls
Beneath slippered feet
And plodding gently home
On a whim of chance
Betwixt ample companions
Of the imagination
Supported by a spinning world
Encased in dim starlight
If I blink or get turned about
I'm not coming home tonight
But for a more exotic destination
To wake up oblivious
And in agony
Tonight
I won't drink any more
Monday, November 08, 2004
Welcome friend and
Compatriot, fellow
Cypriot in our Hellenist
Endevour
We shall harness you
Like the power of the
Waves grinding the shore
Forever
I am staff
Staring at the sea
I am staff
Beneath the halls of bone
Strung up for all time
On the fragrant whims of chance
Asleep no more to dream
And be one again
With the unknown.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
It is a real-life portrait
Of everything that's on late
Shining on your TV screen
I thought you were quite irate
At being forced into fate
Like a roller-coaster dream
You said you didn't know it
That's why you never show it
Even when you want to scream
You think it's like a movie
The music is quite soothing
Like a roller-coaster dream
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Sunday, October 31, 2004
The night is rife with song
Hanging by a tender thread
A cinder ready to spark
And you and I are lost
In the stream in which we flow
Laughter by the gallon
And stories in their swarms
Eddy on around us
Like a twig lost in a storm
Till land is lost from sight
But keep your eyes on the horison
Because that is where I'll stand
With my watchful eye upon you
And a cup of water in my hand
Off into the darkness
Boldly forth into the unknown
Tell me wanderer do you realise
Where it is that you are gone,
With your swaying foot-step tread?
I'll be waiting just outside
And tapping on the glass
To stave away disaster
Till danger sweeps on past
And you are not grounded.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Life's a bit of wait and see
When you come
Like a flock of birds
Or an aeroplane
On a windy day
To land on my front step.
I'll glide gently to and fro
Like a breeze
In a little rowboat
And you rock me to sleep
Or to laughter
As the sky scudds by.
When you come
You sing to me
Voices of a thousand harmonies
And a safe harbour
With the salty wind
For company.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Memory Graft
There are times when I remember you
At the beach by the pier
In a broken down summer
That stretched on for years
I remember the laughter
I remember the waves
And I wish that I could just
Cut it away
Tsunami has washed me
Past the breakers
That broke me
Now I am alone at sea
With memories for company
Monday, October 18, 2004
There's a purple-black haze
Alseep on my plate
A bruise rising from the lake
Of rippling ink on my page
It has a life of its own
This quiescent beast
A malevolent scene
Spring-loaded to unfold
Whispering sage truths
Like the corner of a building
Hiding the unseen
In a scrawling of muse
And I perch, forcing
Recalcitrant brain
More facts to contain
And not leak like rusted plumbing
But exhaustion rises
Like a purple-black haze
To drive me beneath the rippling waves
Where consciousness flits away
To its own devices.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Monday, October 11, 2004
There were times when I'd find myself waking
To shadows of morning light
and the birds overhead kept on calling,
Haunting me all through the night
Then I found you and everything unwound
chimney smoke
and you spoke
driving away hunger
like the breath of life
whispering in my ears
tingles down my spine
Saturday, October 09, 2004
You're not a ship
To carry me
When the weather's rough
And raging
You're not a dream
To fade away
The minute I come
To waking
Like the morning fog
But you are gone
Somebody says something
And inside turns out
And I'm on my feet
Running like a dead man
Is that the future
At the tunnel ending
Or only the bright prelude
To the end?
This is not a day
For tears
Nor a night for
Farewells
You are not the one
Who has broken my world
But you are not the one
To sew it back again.
You are my daylight
As I hold you in my arms
And gently let you go
Somebody says something
And inside turns out
And I'm on my feet
Running like a dead man
Is that the future
At the tunnel ending
Or only the bright prelude
To the end?
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
The clouds scudd low
Missiling home
The thousands of dots
Lit up by their life
Flickering on the screen
Of the trigger-happy man
In-charge and out of control
They think they are silent
Unseen as ghosts
And they are wrong
As the sky screams
And day dawns for a split second
They are made silent as ghosts
Monday, October 04, 2004
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Fond Farewell
Playing tic-tac-toe on the edge of your patience
Your're running in circles not keeping your station
And I'm by myself
The man at the top will give you a courtmartial
The man below will just roll his eyes like
You're a crazyman with iron balls
But you really don't care at all.
It' the end of the road pal, it's been a nice journey
And it's time now to salvage your past you've been mourning
Like a dying man
Your hopes and your dreams lie dead on the carpet
You're practically screaming "It's never been like that
It's time for you to leave!
I'll see you when I do"
I won't be long
The words always come out wrong.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
You fall alseep by the telephone
And your stoic misperception
Is climbing out through the window
Of your planned misconception
The hall lights flicker down low
Like a man playing base
You must take care not to overthrow
You'll get blood all over the place
You can scream and run
There's no escape
Everywhere you blunder
There's no escape
You're climbing up the walls
I believe in a happy future
Where you are nought but a memory
And I'm not afraid to suture
And cut you away from me
The phone-line's ringing dead
And the voices in your head
Are crying out for redemption
You can scream and run
There's no escape
Are you having fun
There's no escape
You're climbing up the walls
The inside is calling
And I cannot resist
It's telling me everything
The inside is calling
And I'm falling asleep
Behind the wheel
Of my motorvehicle
To which truth will I awake?
I'm coming inside
Palms out, arms up
You have nothing to fear
I just want to know
What its like to be you.
Outside its raining
And I'm never coming back
I've turned from the past
And embraced the future
Blind as a bat
Friday, September 24, 2004
We've all been once
To the tip of the world
Where to go on
Is to go back
Am I goods undeclared?
Your smile brightens
My dull day
And I am enamelled
Against a lonely night
But am I rent in arrears?
Shaken faith and
Doubtful sound
Speak gracefully
And you shall hear
I will always be there.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Any other day
Is an opening of possibilities
I'm stranded at the crossroads
A fire-flash in the heavens
And we are made anew
Beneath the dazzling starlight
Or the scratching breathing
Of a pre-dawn jogger
Running from yesterday
Or towards tommorrow
And he will take the workload
Though it will bury him
On his youthful shoulders
Like a mountain
Like a fountain
Flowing up the slope
Again the rain
Cascading down your temples
Annoints you for procession
And the people bow
Like waves on the sea shore
Like a stalwart cedar
You will be worn away.
And the strain overtaking
Like a runnaway train
Holding onto the railing
Lies and malformed truths
Rising up like the plague
To carry you
Where you wish not to go
And he will take the workload
Though it will swallow him whole
On his tired shoulders
Like a volcano
Like the universe
Is starting to implode
And the rain this time
Will arrive to late
Only to find he has met his fate
And won free.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
With voice fragile as a china doll
And eyes wide as full moons
She crept onto the gaping stage
To overtake her doom
The rows of teeth stretched before her
Eager for the tender kill
Silent as a sickly lamb
She held her world to stand-still
And the first wavering note
Clove the air from ear to ear
Holding breaths in united pause
That all the earth might hear
"Let the children rise
And kiss the rosy dawn
To dance from hill
To shining sea
Forever more in peace "
Calfs screaming for sweet release
A mirage of rainbow and sun
She danced before them
As light and shadow joined as one
Tender as the night-stars
Blinking in morning light
They witnessed all a miracle
The dying dove took flight
And left them glued breathless
To confining leather seats
Staring blankly from their cages
To where joy and sorrow meet.
"Let the children rise
And kiss the rosy dawn
To dance from hill
To shining sea
Forever more in peace "
Monday, September 20, 2004
God shines from pulpit
Abraiding black yesterday
Forging me anew.
"Bow down to our gods!"
There is one God alone, He
Saves me from shipwreck.
Trusting in God, I
Tread my feet through dark places
I am not afraid.
Gas wheezes, flames, glows
Cleansing away outer chill
But inside untouched.
In church quietly sit
And attend to chastening words
Or write poetry.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Fake plastic horror
Is stitched together
With frayed cords of plot
Under a blackened moon
That shines until noon
And a man who's actually not
But he scares us to death
He scares us to death
And I'll run away.
He drives like a crazy man
An irrational metal fan
Howling and screaming at us
Can we run any faster?
Cause we know what he's after
And I'd like not to expose my guts
He has a knife
He's got a knife
He's got a knife
And I'll run, away.
It's all through the looking glass
The terror is bound to pass
When the music quiets down
But sometimes it never goes away
And it plays for day after day
Till we're stuck and the sun's gone down
He'll kill us all
I'll run away
He'll kill us all
And what's the point
Anyway?
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Friday, September 17, 2004
Courtsign flashing
Bee-boppin' through town
Take us all to the cleaners
Lawyered up and ready
For the noon-time glare
Of camera flash
Until you've lost your way
Or am I lost already
Staring blankly at a wall
Of the common citizen
You left me behind
When we went our seperate ways
I have no plea
But the wire-tap in my head
Yelling out orders at the top
Of metaphorical lungs
Do you ever even tire
Of looking down from on high?
Or are we mere mortals
Slowly succumbing
Under a killer sky?
When the lulling ocean
Drapes sunlight silk
And red-hued sand
Sifts slowly through
The pulling fingers of tide
Greedily snatching
Further up the dry land
Gulls swoop lazy
Like sardines in a can
Diving to the trash-clogged
Rusted bin, squacking
Like excited toddlers
Only to be shooed
By panting joggers
Collapsing for a rest
In the sucking morning air
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
When you say no tomorrow
The headlights coming on
You're screaming round in circles
And comaed on the lawn
Alone but for a headache
That hangs around all day
Afraid they're gonna lock you up
And throw away the key
The stars they look so peaceful
Despite their bleeding lights
You say, sprawled on the pavement
Throughout the fogfilled night
To wake up in a golfcourse
With an empty cardboard box
Mad, deprived and driven
To fit the keys into the lock
Its no better to remember
Than tomorrows angry glare
Beaming down from cursed heavans
Couldn't reality dissappear
For just one cool, dark second
Instead of tearing through your skull
With furious determination
In your tiny pinpoint hell
Are you screaming at the universe?
Are you feeling better now?
Do you want to dissappear completely
And never again be found?
The answers come up short
When you're looking through the drink
Until you know the difference between
Drinking and getting drunk.
Saturday, September 11, 2004
The sidewalks ring hollow
Beneath heavy-booted feet
Like singing to the sunset
While stumbling through the streets
Time flies like eagles
On golden-feathered wings
Away like breeze
You dance through the people
They swear at your back
Youre pushing and shoving
Do you even know it yet?
Or is the moon only rising at night
In complete duplicate
Haloing your vision
Laughter turns the circle
To flying fits of rage
Against the machine
Against yourself
A mental bubonic plague
But I wouldn't worry 'bout it
It's all gone by morning
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
You throw your childish tantrums
Beaming anger in your wake
You set about to prove me wrong
Only to prove me right again.
Screaming at the universal
Emptiness, like you inside
Are there stars twinkling in your soul?
Are you more than meets the eye?
Here I know that I lost you
Plotting courses to galaxies
To paintbrush-strokes of strobing light
As alone as one person can be
I could let you go so gently
On the rippled surf of time
To drift away slow and sullen
Because you were never really mine
Did it occur you'd miss the mark
Could you be sure you were shooting for
Anything more substantial than phantasms
Conjured up from the bedroom floor?
As you hang there half awake half asleep
One step from the thundering cliffs
I distance myself from your self-destructions
Watching your life cut adrift
Let the leaping waters cover me
I can look you in the eye
I am noone's final sunset
I am noone's last goodbye.
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Pull me down
And the wool over my eyes
Will sing of sweeter mercies
That have been undone
As we float apart
In the raging river
Tell me if I ever
Was someone
At all
Fly me a kite
Over the ocean
Handed down softly
From father to son
Like a bagpipe dream
Drifting down on the breeze
Surely the clouds only
Hide the sun
Saturday, September 04, 2004
He simply sat there sat there
By himself, alone
But for the frantic screaming
Of his scratched cell phone
As time dripped slowly
And wettly from the roof
Of the overhang overhead
And onto his polished boot
He shuddered slightly
With each indrawn breath
As if trying madly
To triumph but the rest
Had drawn him to his knees.
Till finally the screaming
He answered.
You malign me completely
Mister, won't you reconcider?
My fortune's on the stake,
And it's time to make or brake.
Into the barren sunlight
Like a shoestore that's been robbed
Glass crunching beneath is shoes
Striking him as odd
The curvature of breeze
As it whickered through the trees
Undying hunter that
Would drag him to his knees
Again, and delving deeply
Where his personality hides
Afraid of the light that says
The future is coming on
Fatally.
Sitting on a parkbench
A smile rides his lips
Curled into a snarl
That launched a thousand ships
Towards the equator
Around and around
"Are you lost?", cried the curator
As he parrused through his grounds
Eyeing him thoughtfully
"Or mearly waiting to be found"
"Sir", he mumbled gruffly
"Can there be tomorrow
For one such as I?"
Staring intently at the anthill
Swarming at his feet
"Sirrah, it is clear to me,
That you'll simply have to wait and see."
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
You cut me so deep
Like third degree burns
I don't even bleed
You have cauterised me
Skinned like a cat
Hung out to dry
But you'll be home soon
A tsunami, a typhoon
And I am washed ashore
On a deserted isle
Sunset days and guile
Hovering like fire-flies
Taunting the darkness
Time's up I guess
And tomorrow's over
Already down the drain
Gurgling softly
Into the murky past
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
Into the crossfire
Dazzling the street
Maligning the neighbourhood
For everyone to see
Dancing like a dying man
Through the shadow seas
And into the sunset
Doors thumping on hinges
Spraypainted with ichor
Stop and stare at passers by
For though they die to know more
Learning has been locked away
The learned bleeding on the floor
Do you ask what is wrong?
Nothing is out of the oridnary
This is a shakedown
Get your loved ones to safety
This is a shakedown
We can make it easy
But you can make it hard
Do you want to see tomorrow?
Then we humbly suggest
You start running
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Monday, August 23, 2004
Jingle bells, snow falling, cascading
In a myriad dancers
Each to their own tune, on a fuse
Set by the screaming light overhead
A melange of streaming blazes
Luminous and bold
In the clouded skies above
Twinkling like stars
In telescopic view
To pile high like mountains
Purification from the sky
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Daylight through the shades
Is often blinded to the truth
As you eye up the walls
In the corners of your room
And the singsong on the radio
Is not playing your tune
And the weather reports
Predict raining till noon.
The flies on the wall
Staring blankly into space
Like tiny winged vacuum
Cleaners humming about the place
And you are left illumined
By the television's glare
That does little to hide
Your tear-streaked face
Turning off the TV
To go face the world
Shotgun in hand
And standard unfurled
Revenge on the parasites
Whose talons are curled
Around your heart and soul
As everything swirls
Into meaninglessness
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Frog's gone and jumped in a lake
Brimming with sadness and diving
Deeper than he'd ever been
Laughing so softly and nigh on unseen
He trimmed the verges at the lake bottom
Dodging the jestam and flotsam and rotton
Discardations of our nations in their sullen heap
Till he met the fairy queen and fell fast asleep
All alone in a cage by the lake
Monday, August 16, 2004
Wake from the nightmare, the wind has died away
The air is filled with the dark
You and me, asleep on the train
Wondering where we are
And you keep dreaming
You're leaving me alone
Falling from heaven
Plunging like a stone
Into the icy ocean
Into the great unknown
Shivers and groans, the sleepers symphony
And scratchings on the wall
Breathing so slow, afraid that you might leave
Or you're not here at all
While I keep dreaming
I toss and turn again
Seeing you leaving
An electrode in my brain
Tired of needing
And exhausted from the pain
Ticking away the hours down from midnight
A silence full of sound
And shadows at the edge of sight
Gone when I look around
But you keep dreaming
Where nothing bad can find
And time is screaming
Into my aching mind
I guess I'm leaving
You away behind
But its all for your good
The demons are sure
To follow
Me
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Weaving through the groves
Of dimly-lit functionaries
Luminous and multiplex
In their self-esteemed offices
And the bushes crowding round
Obscure the past from view
Like running through a waterfall
Only not emerging clean
Soap suds and cameras
Shining down like stars
Thinking what does this all mean?
Turning through corridors
Leading to wells ever upwards
And sentences blend into words
That spell doom for tomorrow
So stay awhile and take the test
It'll all be for the best for you
You see, you cannot hope to be
More that one dimension.
Craving justice or righting wrongs
Cool, paranoid, or full of song
Swinging down from trees
Meet reality on the subway
Hanging out the taxi window
Winking, and humming slowly
Even as I trawl through
Oceans of thought, oppinion
And unjustified fact
Prison and seldom
A man could look back
And smile at the future
Or maybe the past
I maybe unsure,
I can't tell, I'll just ask
And worship the printout
Like a primeval god
Can't you see I am so afraid I am
Just another one dimensional person?
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Flag-waving, crowd stamping
Progress gaining through the storm
Of people cheering, dissapearing
Inside the confines of the tented room
Colours flashing, air vibrating
With the facade of the rainbow
Thrilling all to wonderment screaming
At the soaring center of the show
To noone crying, plumed and flying
Ascended above a sea of opened mouths
Each show endures a little more dieing
Till supplies finally run out.
Winding down slowly onto the taxicab-way
Waving down a passing motorist
With dust-smeared palms
He trundles his life to the end of the page
And breaks down, a gibbering mess
Losing all semblance of calm
And the grim-turning beat of progress
Sweeps his unprotetsting form
To the gurgling gutters
Beside his tattered briefcase and Sunday best
A figure of muted sorrow, a warn-
ing of how fast close the shutters.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Dancing, easy listening
Its a long walk home
You are eyeing up the sidewalk
You are singing sofly to the rain
As you idle gently by
The glassed-up shoe stores
With managers slumping
Bored the rain has washed away
Their valued custom
But you are singing softly to the rain
You are feeling whole and well again
You are looking like you hibernated
For a year to let it all drift by
All skull and bones and driftwood
And the music pumping through your veins
Monday, August 02, 2004
Friday, July 30, 2004
Suicide aveneu
Outside my appartment
Appart from any obligations
Life is never repeating
Some things are only done once
And you can't look back
The mirror stares harder some mornings
And some mornings I break.
The frost it settles
Down on my lawn
A crystal sheet
To hide yesterday
Till the sun comes up
And washes us away
Monday, July 26, 2004
Train station
Leaving fast
Vacation
Have a blast
Times running
Out so long
As I'm standing
Holding on
To the rail.
Jump-roping
For your heart
Skip-lightly
Make a start
Eyes forwards
Thoughts behind
You'll be alright
So never mind
The back-trail.
Spin-talking
On a break
Tires squealing
Through the day
Screams starting
To remain
Etched silent
In my brain
I have failed.
Saturday, July 24, 2004
llama I have you,
llama I want you
to come over here
and sing our song
llama I have to
llama, I need now
to go over hill
and find what we’ve lost
(and sinking slowly)
llama you are me
llama cant you see
llama I am lost
without your pretty face
llama it is true
llama I need you
llama you can do
nothing wrong for me
all that I can see
is your beautiful face
and so it appears
I cant, hide the tears
they bleed from my eyes
in saddened streams
and what have I done?
I can’t see the sun
this planet I am on
is bereft of you!
(and sinking slowly)
llama you are me
llama cant you see
llama I am lost
without your pretty face
llama it is true
llama I need you
llama you can do
nothing wrong for me
all that I can see
is your beautiful face
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Oh, its a jello-teen world
With a trampoline spotlight
Singing down to us in love
Will we ever look above
The sedimentary ordinary?
Oligo-personalities
Caroom every-which-way
Like the sheep said to the zebra
"Why the long face?"
And the cheesy mexican buffet
Idled past on the way to the corner
Beside the beef side
Where the apple trees lie
And cover their dealings
In an ocean of rye
Grass blossoming to the horisons
Taking the smell of a half-baked idea
And thrusting it under the pent-up
Nostrels of an overbearing syllibance
"Dance monkey, dance!"
Cry the flippant-naysayers
Decrying their own special justice
For a meager half-price.
"Will we dance or won't we?"
Meandering the hobnobbing
Hairbrained tortise
And smiling all the while.
It is easy to fall apart
When you are balancing chairs
And the day is shining bright
On the lawn outside
Shaking out a laughter bout
With incumbant friends
And the girl next door
Eying up the linoleum
We should take a break
Today as I say that way
We'll be lost in a jungle
Beneath furniture tumble
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Silence, and the movie rolled
The credits sank through the floor
And the lights gently dimmed
Simmering into soft darkness
She sat there beside me
Interposing beauty
On the refurbished furniture
Breathing quiet anticipation.
Butter coated, golden toasted
Dyed wood pulp bag ensconsed
Apportioned abundance
Of delicately posed sylvan figure.
Connects our cushioned seats
Screenplay dances ever onwards
Eyes never leave the sparkling screen
Except occasional glances
At eyes that shimmer crystalline
And a laugh as pure as the rain.
Ending credits waterfall
And I'm begging time to freeze
As this moment dissolves in my grasp
And the ubiquitous breeze
Of change relegates it to memory
Of butter coated, golden toasted
Dyed wood pulp bag ensconsed
Apportioned abundance
Of delicately posed sylvan figure.
That joined our cushioned seats.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Jumping tiger
Breaks another
Find yourself sitting
With your brother
And you're happy.
Flinging dirt
At angry shirts
That shout so loud
It really hurts
To see them.
Jumping down
To china town
You find the gutter
All your own
To lie in.
And you'll be given time
To make something of yourself
And you can join the dance
As we parade around the floor
Evermore.
Drinking up
The empty cup
Craving for more
Till you throw up
Unconsceous.
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Wander by the streamlets
And the paths that meander
Haphazard across the tilled
Earth and gently waving
Crests of barley and wheat.
You shall spy the chilled
Heat of summer swooping
Down from the sky to beat
Upon your brow. Thrilled
With the breeze gently hooping
Through the auburn trees
And frollicksome sheep
As they graze away their days.
But you will not find her there.
Take to the mountains
Grasping hands of the earth
Straining ever heavenwards
Sweating with snow
Covered crown of splendor
Shining in the autumn drawn
Illumination. A diffuse glow
And drawing minds to wonder
At the lofty mistique borne
On the howling winds that blow
And sing to the hilltops yonder
With hollow voice and mellow
Tone so as to placate
The peaks in the absense of her.
Into the borrough
And the quaint fishing town
Life flowing like treacle
Like the lifeblood of trees
As the seas rage against
The sandstone steepled
By endless agression. To see
Such a silent testiment
A eddying current of people
File past, just to be
Muted in wonderment
Children against the frosted
Distant sky skudding above
Reaching down. And she is not here.
To the buds of dawn
And the blossoming laughter
Of life in its first wobbly steps
Wide-eyed, terrified,
Joy and sapient vigor
And rich colours laid to rest
Awaken to delight the eyes
Look to the flowers in splendor
Striving ever to glow the best
And sweet perfume flies
The senses to dumfound with candor
And musical laughter
Like the gurgling of the brook
You turn, and she is there.
Sunday, July 11, 2004
The trees and their eyes in yellowed surprise They sparkle and dazzle and delicately fly.
I wander the path, that I’ve never seen before, I am knowing the way, back to the door
To the step where you left me, to find something more, than a Nile of tears that has run itself dry
The grass and the birds seem to vibrate with life, and the waterfall sings as I’m passing it by, the sky sapphire blue, has a harmonic hue, yet the tension inside can be sliced with a knife.
Like a doorstop in front of an oncoming train I’m so unprepared for a life in the rain
Where the world seems so hollow, despite how it appears, and everything’s perishing into flame.
Ill build a house of bricks, and lollypop-sticks in the hope you’ll come visit, when its time to warm the house. When the echo’s of life out-of-doors, will find its way out.
Deceased man’s slumber, on a storm tossed ship. Motionless, calm, as the crewmembers swarm, up ropes and overboard. There’s a smile etched on his face when the planking-boards rip.
And so endless sorrows are passing me by, like the waterfall not long ago inside my mind’s eye, sitting on the mailbox, waiting till the man comes, to re-attach me to the sapphire sky, the trees and their eyes in yellowed surprise, will witness my passing in smooth, graceful flight.
Carefree caressing the nameless denial,
That quenches the soul with demon spawned bile
Epitome of hateful and lusting regret,
To seldom forgive and never forget,
Stolen dreams ride on waves of dead pleasure,
Love gone so long that it is barely remembered
But still live continues as it has as of yore,
Trials and errors to be brought before,
Humanities judges, corrupted old fools
Decrepit, despising desirous of the jewels
Of power they cling to with an inhuman grasp
Till life falls away, and death comes atlast.
To take all they lived for and turn it to nothing.
Fearful and hateful, in their own emotions drowning
Spitefully struggling and causing a riot,
Till they are all dragged down, and everything’s quiet.
Monday, July 05, 2004
"Let the children sing"
Cried the charioteer
Careening through the sands
Past the marking pier
Laughing like a hyena
He gripped the reigns
In battle-scarred claws
Blood-screaming veins
Protruded from his arms
As they flailed his steads
Through another turn
And into the lead.
The chariots behind
Collapsed into maelstrum
As if by design
Tuned to the drum-
Beat of the hooves
Round the stadium track
Perfectly timed moves
Cheers at his back
Another victory
For his tally
And another race to forget
For his opponents
Though they tried their best
They are no match
For the greatest
Stadium charioteer
For two hundred years.
Maybe I'll do the prequel tomorrow
Aesthetically
The world is as it should be
As you flow into the room
Your eyes catch the light
And you are gone to soon.
Pathetically
Only gaping and staring
Silent and nervous
Of the world around
Completely oblivious
Telepathically
Crying out to you
As though to force
You to stay another moment
To enjoy your presence.
Cynically
Hiding in a hole
A third-person personality
As though it never mattered
When it always has to me.
Appostraphy
Looking down at me
From skyward heights
While here below
Young and old
Belt out tunes
On a highwire.
Asterix
What did I miss?
Were you at the show
Where we reigned, I know
You were lovesick
And missed the trick
When you got into your flow
Adjoining word
Have you heard
The kerfufel downtown
As the Saint Swithen's Day clown
Has broken his skull
Like an appocalypse gull
Flown down from the clouds.
Full stop
It's time to drop
And strike for
Equality The door
Lies open to us
The consumer race
And to hell with the poor.
Friday, July 02, 2004
Are you in love?
It's hard to say
I'll take my olive branch
And fly away.
With promises
You left undone
Why did you take it for granted?
Now it's gone.
Were you awake
When the sky bloomed?
Have you taken a plane to heaven
And returned so soon?
Rollercoaster rides
Taking our money
Cause we're inside
Rollercoaster rides
Takes all our money
And our insides.
You'll find a tree
In jungle mess
It will show you all the visions
That you left
Behind the door
At the corner store
How did you not even notice
What you're looking for?
And in that grove
You'll start to sing
The sun beaming down from heaven
Forgiving everything.
Even rollercoaster rides
Roller coaster rides
Taking our money
We step inside
Takes all our money
And our insides.
It's always funny
From the inside
It's time for running
Cause you're inside.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Monday, June 28, 2004
She came to you
The bedroom window through
Silhouetted
Against the waning moon
An owl's hoot broke
The silence and she spoke
Of machinations
That caught breath in the throat
And both fell silent
Any noise would feel like violence
A knife pricking in the skin
On an island
In the flows of time
Thoughts sublime
Floated freely
Through your minds.
And she left, as she came
Silence but for a whispered name
A cry against the dark, cold night
For the grief-torn mind to frame.
Thew world is all you must leave behind
She said as she strode the globe
Leaving in her wake, a procession of promises
And a husk of nothing I could not let go
As I turned to look away
Past the designs of another lifetime
Compressed into one trip to the moon
And a plot for peace when atlast I die.
There came a breeze from a hidden place
Upon the open earthen face
It hallowed and sanctified my pain
And put it aside for a brighter day
Where the thunder speaks only of distant rain.
'Would you jump, if I command?'
She said with her matter-of-fact expression
'You wear your life on your lips
And I will have none of that obsession.'
But I coulsn't help but laugh
As she had done not so long ago
It seems sometimes we still wear
The clothes we always meant to throw out.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
Underneath and below
Taken off from earth
And all we know.
Its more than they deserve
Desert warfare
Below the seas
On the silty sand
WIll you stop to look at me?
Where do you stand?
Where do you stand?
Jumping box
Jump for me
I'm behind the bushes
Laughing at the sparrows
Staring down the barrel
A horrible way to go?
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Stranger on the water
Speaks of love and truth
Shows us all his power
As we hurl at him abuse.
Stranger on the river
Floating by on a boat
The sun is gone but not a shiver
Marks him on this road.
Stranger on the highway
We all pass him right by
He calls as we are on our way
But we hide from his knowing eyes
Stranger at the doorway
Asking to be let in
We tell him to go away
Because there's no trusting him.
Stranger on the cross now
Bleeding for our crime
As we witness endless giving
How can we remain the same?
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
On a golden pool at sunset
On a movie-splendor ride
With a peanut-vender sidekick
The world just comes alive.
Would you throw away your freedom
For a shell of molten lead
Tearing through the atmosphere?
Or maybe through your head.
You know where that will leave you
Six feet underground
And it isn't overly pleasant
When you cannot make a sound
(quiet breathing)
He will come and take you
Take you very far away
Silence he will teach you
Silent you will stay
Eyes that notice everything
Lips that speak no wrong
Tell me are you terrified
Over where your life has gone?
Are you gutteral with fear
Are you quaking with remorse?
I tell you its too late for that
To late to take your horse (and run)
(footsteps in the night)
Eavesdrops dripping from the eaves
Leaves drop spinning from the trees
Are those your nightmare fantasies
Of what he's hiding up his sleeves?
(scream echoing down a corridor)
The air is beautiful tonight
The sky so full of colour
Dripping from the skylight
Down to our earthly palor.
We are of the heavans sailors
Or so we used to think
Before the realities of trailer
Park-life drove us to the drink.
And we saw diamonds night
And shadows in the day
Stalking close behind us
Waiting till we strayed
(sharp intake of breath)
Running gets you nowhere safe
Breaks squealing, earth spinning
You plunge down into the lake
You must have been dreaming
There can be no escape
One minute your atop your throne
The next you've lost all they can take
And you're wandering alone
Then he jumps you in the alley
And face-plant's you in the mud
As the shadows swarm around you
All calling for your blood
(sobs fading to silence)
Runnaway
Runnaway and forget
All that you never left
Behind you as you
Made your way through
The trodden paths
Of everyone
They led you there
And now your coming home
You're coming home.
(wind whistling gently through a bramble thicket)
The eyes in the box
The thoughts in the night
All watchers take warning
We run from the light
To the depths of the drawers
Insufferable, misserable
Calamity strikes
Over glass-calm waters.
Shake a stick
Shake a leg
Get a move on
Run to the hills
Flee to the mountains
And never return
Till the hills are drained dry
And our work here is done.
Romance killed
The colourful painter
At fouroclock
His nextdoor neighbor
Found him sprawled
Over the counter
Eyes like coins
Told a wonderful story
Ages ahead
But miles behind
I’m not sure I wonder
Whether he had made his mind
Was it his time to go?
You find the answer
On a train to Stockholm
Through the alps
Ontop of wasp stings
You have to put up with
The Cavalry storm
At the other end
It’s little wonder
You never seemed happy
Carrying your tool-box
Like it was the world
With an aluminum handle
Temples set watch
With eyes in their sockets
They found themselves
Racing away from the future
Screaming out in fear
Never before had they seen themselves
IN the mirror of
Other people’s minds..
Saturday, June 05, 2004
The sun behind our backs
We took to wandering
Over the beach
With the tide coming in
And washing our feet.
We couldn't believe it.
Taking our shoes
From under the table
Singing the blues
At the top our lungs
We stopped for a breather
And we took to the skies
Flying beyond tommorow
We floated above
Yesterday's cares and concerns
We took to the skies
Sailing off into the sunset
Holding hands
We passed into the seas.
And the golden sun
Anointed the ocean
In a passionfruit glow
We felt that the world
Had spun a new rythme
The tides of the sea
Were all we laid eyes on
But for the waving grass
Mimicking peaceful surrender
To the clouds above
Smiling in granduer
And we took to the skies
Flying beyond tommorow
We floated above
Yesterday's cares and concerns
We took to the skies
Sailing off into the sunset
Holding hands
We passed above the seas.
The sun had set
And the deepening darkness
Did nothing to hide
Her beautiful eyes
Against the gilding of
The natural splendor
Of the crashing waves
We took to laughing
And rolling in the sand
The moon above, the earth below
We were where we belonged.
And we took to the skies
Flying beyond all tommorows
We drifted away
Soaring above all we knew
We took to the skies
Sailing off into the moonglow
Holding hands
We saw what the future brings
Marching through the wintercourse of daily life on the commencement of examlihood, one canst perhaps get a sounding for the deep sense of dread and awe that has overflown into the wellsprings of the university. Nothing does anymore, more like quitting and starting again. So much for early year promises of indulging in pre-exam period study, and for 'working hard all year long'. Sometimes it seems the year-long is so much longer.
And they sat there thinking that they had made some crazy mistake. Perched in the forefront of their vision, like a silent mockery of social and ecconomic justices many and varied, was the tyranical form of the exams. Hulking and huge, like a bohemoth that cannot be overcome, or the sacred piece of land loaned out to the underworthy. There is always so much to talk about, but environs always seem to end in a 'no but thanks for asking'. We could weave our entertainment into spasmodic melodies. Harmonies and symphonies, and taken aback, they lay there, half awake, half asleep. Chalk outlines on the lawn-and-concrete-surface of modern life. They twitter like hyperventilating sparrows and mock and jeer with rhapsodic voices. I wish, now, that I had last year all over again, as it was a wonderful year. Rueing, that is the word. And the work. Seems dissappointments always fail to make appointments, and they take it like the dead. Stoic and unfriendly, almost xenophobic, they stare across the vicious morass of a society they have so freely ammalgamated with. They dance aloud, always muttering about how surgery seems to take them that next step higher, nearer the clouds, closer to the sun that draws them like a fly to the trap.
It's almost Darwinian, if such a trend exists. No sooner is the flat pancake of life flipped than an almost anomalous visiter from another solar system is laid flat on their doorstep. Anxious. Vital. They measure their lives by the beating of their heart, and get scared when environmental noise pollution threatens their way of life. It is always nice to watch the butterfly emerge from it's coccoon, to flutter away in the breeze in its too-short life. But the more you think about it, the sadder it seems, till butterflies draw nought but tears from the sad faces they flutter past. But all things die, or so they have been led to believe. As they lay there, the checkerboard sunlight playing shadow puppets on their upturned faces. MAybe oneday they will be ready for the step ahead. Until then, they keep their heads down, close to their books in the futile hope that that day will not catch them napping.
The sun came over
The same old hill today
And I rolled over
To turn my alarm clock off
Just as I did yesterday
And before that, who knows?
The wind blew through
The skeleton trees today
As I stood below the line
And hung out my washing
Just as I did last week
And perhaps even the week before..
I read a book
And it spoke to me of you
I turned the pages
And your face sprung into view
I'd turn around
But I'm afraid you're turning too
It looks like today
It's just a different shade of blue.
A stone clattered
Down the asphelt street today
I turned to see it pass
And it shattered at my feet
That didn't happen yesterday
I wonder what it means?
I read a book
And it spoke to me of you
I turned the pages
And your face sprung into view
I'd turn around
But I'm afraid you're turning too
It looks like today
It's just a different shade of blue.
I took a photo
Down from on my wall
Whenever I come in there
It always caught my eye
If I had speck of courage
I'd burn it in the flames
But I'm afraid I won't put it down
When you occupy my view
I read a book
And it spoke to me of you
I turned the pages
And your face sprung into view
I'm close to crying
Because I think you're crying too
Seems this day and every day
Keeps pointing back to you.
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
His imagination took him places
He could scarsely believe what he saw
Through the window
An army of sand marching past
The totem poles to a lightning god
All linking hands.
As they filed past in grim succession
Arms reaching towards the sky
Which glared down in unbreachable torment
Through billowing clouds of light.
His imagination took him places
He would never admit to a soul
For the memories
Played subtle symphonies in his mind
Sorrow and joy mingling
Like falling tears
They watered the earth till green exploded
The scenery like bubonic plague
And was washed away
By the upwelling colour of life
Neverending, its quest to overwhelm the eyes.
Till quenched humming spoke to him
Of journeys over, and arrival home.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Seven o'clock, lying on the carpet
Gazing at the ceiling scroll-work
Time idles by in syrup slowness
And the world catapults around the sun.
Shadows fade, to pastel shadings
Softening the sharpened sunlight
As it cascades angularly
Through the open window.
The breeze plucks a silent tune
On the billowing curtains
The air breathes the warmpth of companionship.
And I am not alone on the luxurios floor.
A cat stretched out in the daylight
And the universe seems right.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
just today, i strived, and lo, the toast of an single piece didst become blackened like the night. And up from the fiery tumult there arose a choking darkness the likes of which the eyes of man have not seen before nor shall see again. And a third of the kitchen was blotted out in darkness from the rising of the sun till it reaches its zenith. And all the peoples cried out in despair, "Damn, that was my breakfast!"
Monday, May 24, 2004
Explosions rock
The basement floor
And we are struck
By the everpresent 'Your'
Like you own the world
And you rule it all
With an iron fist and
A rubber ball.
You sat on a roof-top
Idling time
Away, and we
Never catch your rhyme
Like you whistle
A different tune
Hovering slightly
On a trip to the moon.
And I said
"We should go
Take a turn by the lake"
You just laughed
Then you left
Us to mill in your wake
And so I
Never forgive myself
For doing you wrong
And laughing when you told me
You life is a song
I'm starting to wander
Off the beaten track
Hopeing like crazy
You'll be calling me back
But it's all just a curtain
And it shadow's my view
And every path seems
Only to lead to you.
And then I said,"Hey,
how is life?
How was your day?"
And you just laughed
As if to say
It never even mattered
It just got in the way.
Coversation's drowning
Through the silky surface
And you slip away
Through the forest shadows
And fields of hay
I'll never forget
How you wrote your song
It's only in music
Now we both belong.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
She's a taller house inside
Like a skyscraper and glass
Glistens slowly in the light
As we gently cycle past.
In the shadows leaning in
Stripping us of the sun
And her doors are open wide
Like a smile
Like a child
Running out to greet the unknown
Reaching out for another light
Another sparkle to delight
The everpresent crowd
Photocamera flash
Neokarmic output
On a newer sheet of paper
Type-write her at your own risk
For she is lovely, stark, and high
Plucking stars from out the sky
So that she can light us up
And take us from the mess we made
And make us all forget
With a smile
Like a child
We reach out for a warmer hug
A hand out of the hole we've dug
It's so nice to see the sky.
Its just not summer
Without the sun
When I'm swimming
Beneath the waves
And the sky is clouding up
In a den of strangers
And of theives.
Slaking their thirst
For fresh blood
Under the sky
Dark as mud
As they hunt
Us all to death
I just need to catch a breath
Fawning prophesies
Speak of naught
But the chicken squabblings
Of spoilt children
Do they run
Behind the shed
Or back to last summer?
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Friday, May 07, 2004
The wind whistled softly
To the trees and streams
Passing in silence
Passing in dreams
Shown for a scandle
A juxtaposed lie
It's robbing my conscience
It's sucking me dry.
I won't see the glass
Or the facets that hide
Beneath the still surface
The darkness inside
A roach on the table
Destined to die
Destined for the fire
Unable to cry.
For the memories lost
For the scars often given
Unwanted unknown
Unheeded undriven
Amid hollow joys
Amid shallow heavans
It seems that the ground
Is always closer than living.
The seas are boisterous today
The seas are rising up
The waves are rising up
My grip is slowly
Slipping away
Slipping away
To the peace below
Where the breeze never falters
And the sky seems to glow
In myriad colours
At least for awhile
I am made whole again
The completed puzzle
But that's all a lie.
And I am slipping
Slowly away
Slowly forever
Slowly forever
Seems such a long time
When you watch your world die
With you at it's center
Slowly forever.
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Spider's sitting
On my window sill
I wonder if he's knitting
A jersey for the winter
Rather than just sitting still.
The web is hanging
Over by the mill
I wonder if it will still be there
If I pop out for a pair
Of roastable krill.
Eminently
Chortling through my day
Like a chilled soprano
And a bowl of macaroni
In a restaurant (by the way
I'd let you know
There is a free space
Purring quietly for you
Sunk down through the blue
Of the ocean by my place.)
The sky is clouding
And I hope it isn't going to rain
I'll have another marageta
As the sky turns to pepper
And pass the lonely web again
To go bring in the washing.
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Falling for weakness
It's hiding below my floor
I'm in my pajamas
Speaking in stammers
As you're framing my door
I'd ask you to come in and sit down
But I'm barely awake
I'd tell you to pack up and leave now
But I'm too scared to shake
And I'm afraid I might brake.
Inside my windows
I'm watching the outside
The birds nesting in the trees
The wind, it is blowing
The leaves they are flowing
Piling against my knees
But I am not moving
Saturday, May 01, 2004
She came and everything subsided
She spoke and everything collided
Into nothing but the purest of silence
I am nothing but dumbfounded.
I thought I'd learned that lesson way back
But maybe, I'll just never get that
Feeling, like everything's pure
And like nothing bad will happen anymore
Like a bolt of light in a thunderstorm
Pull the pieces, it's already torn
It's easy to sit there, a still-life form
When she's there my whole life reforms.
And I am but a shifting shadow
Flitting amilessly away
From her when she
Glances off in my direction
And I don't know what to say......
Maybe let's sit down some time
Have lunch by the bay when I
Can pluck the courage up to be
A sentient being.
Or maybe not, I'll be sitting here
With my heart pounding in my ears
And life flashing by in years
And nothing's gonna change for me
But you....
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Wallplanning fun
And the eye of the world
Rotating like a corkscrew
They shoulder their ravenous burdens
And sail to the heavens
And sail to the heavens
And sail to the heavens
To send them our love.
Stun-blaster gun
At the end of your arm
If they drop it, it may all be over
But can they accept they aren't the king of the hill?
So far from the light
So far from the light
So far from the light
At one with death.
Sing out to the stars
And sigh
Sing out to the stars
And I
Sing out to the stars
And maybe they
Just may hear
And care
Enough to do something about it.
Take your ship
To the chill of the moon
They'll never find us there
The wires are crossed
The lines are broken
And we are all alone
And sail to the heavens
So far from the light
At one with death.
To send them our love.
Sing out to the stars
And maybe just I
May just swing by
Oneday soon.
She took
Off into oblution
Floating like a flotsam
Can you ever trust me?
Taking all for granted
Bring it home to father
I'm sure he will be happy
Like a rabbit in a hole
You'll hide from us all.
We circle
Patient and cunning
Flowers in the springtime
Inevitable, beautiful
Sinuous and splended
It's never untintended
As you cry out on the floor
In a pool of your own mind
When there's nowhere left to hide.
Handgun
To blow away your problems
Do you jump at shadows?
Will you take your feet off?
When the swimmer sights the shore
And she was waiting
Patient and cunning
A flower in the springtime
Inevitable, beautiful
Sinuous and splended
It's never untintended
When you cry at nothing
Drawing all the crowds in
Hysterrical and useless
Mystical and bruised
Lying like a newborn
In a puddle of your mind.
Happy and sad
On a small jumbojet
Taking me places
I'll never suspect
Just what's round the corner
Or behind the next cloud
Or behind the glass-shutters
Fitfully endowed
Their blessings
Like a billows
Blows the fever chill
Of summer-snows
Down my spine
Through my mind
I think its time for tea
Or a cup of something
To cure my mind
Lying supine
On the clammy carpet-floor.
You
Behold a monster
You
Read between the lines
You
Are pure like plaster
Breaking all the time
And I think I'm still standing
It's a miracle you see.
When you wave your
Indignant nonsence
You caroom through the air
And yet you wish
You could fly
You could fly.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Like novacane on a summer's day
Will you talk for just one minute?
I have nothing more to say.
Emphatic as a sea breeze
Chilling as the moon
A haze to faze the iron willed
A weakness turned to boon.
I am all you will ever become
Why can't you see I have you at heart?
You cannot care
I cannot bear
To let you ruin me any more
When even the heavens call.
Surprise gently brushed her features
With the scarlet hue of blood
Or maybe it was anger.
"I'm sorry"
And that was that
Paraplegic tendancies
Won't mask a weakened heart
"You always try to hard"
Talk, askans
Like a predator
Smoke-silent
Stalking through the forest
Keyed for the weakeness
I have none.
Or maybe I am all weakness
To provide a united front
From which to farwell.
You have driven me from sleep
And strangely awakened, I
find myself wondering what I
Ever used to be.
You have taken me away
And flying in circles, I
Find myself hearing all I
Ever used to say.
But now it makes no sence
This innocense
It keeps me drifting at night
Why won't you lend me a light?
The lights flicker off and on
Yet the omnicient hum of
The fridge down the hall of
Our house
It keeps me up at night
And all I think of
Is everything you have
Done to keep me inspired.
But now it makes no sence
This innocense
It keeps me drifting at night
Why won't you lend me a light?
The other night I was
Strangely asleep in your arms
I know you kept me from harm
And I never questioned the cause.
You are a knight on a crusade
And the question I ask is
Are you up to the business
Of killing the monster I have made?
I only drift away
There's nothing more to say
We should have given it another try
Before another life says goodbye.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
(She tiptoed through the rushes
"Don't hate me," she whispered
"Because I run from everything
And nothing.")
Her face was a shadow of smeared eye-liner
As she fled back down the hallway
After half-an-hour of denial
There say simply nothing more to say.
His eyes were burned raw from crying
As he stared blankly out the window
At the sight of summer gently dying
In the windy streets below.
She's melancholy
And he's losing his mind
Life's just cost him his job
And left all his dreams behind
He's stranded on a beach
In the middle of the ocean
And he only sees his father
In himself again.
And now her back's against the wall
Trapped down a filthy alleyway
And help's too far away to call
Her past has caught her up today
He never wanted this at all
He only wanted to be free.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Some days it isn't worth
Smiling at yourself
As you emerge from sullen sleep
With those promises to keep
"I'm sure I'll craft myself
Into a fitter better person."
Laughing at yourself
Over a bowl of kornflakes
You find the sun strangely reminiscent
Of a nuclear warhead
To put the brakes on
Spooning in another mouthful.
But I'll dance into
The misty streets
And play upon gravel-paths
I think it could be worth the laughs
Or maybe I'm content to dream
Where my head is so comfy.
I don't want to get up today
I just want to go back to sleep
I don't think I could do it anyway.
And promises will keep
Till a more promising day.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Jim came home
On his new Harley
Drowning out the neighbourhood
In a fearful racket
In his big leather jacket.
Lincon runs
Well on Tuesdays
All over the muddy city
He couldn't do better
In his oregamy sweater
Nobody knows
Where the trains hide
In the long, dusty evenings
Lurking like sharks
In the thickening dark
But Jim couldn't care less
Flying along
Totally wrong
Totally helpless
But helping himself.
And Lincon, he never worries
He runs straight
Through the gates
And out the other side
In the new morning air.
The coaches they run
Their inevitable circuits
Not stopping for breakfast
For lunch or for tea.
And I bet they get tired
Glued to the wires
Till infinity,
Wanting to be free.
But Jim couldn't care less
Thundering round
The alibaster town
Totally ignorant
Totally wrong
And Lincon watches the road signs
To see if he's heading
Down the wrong way
It's a rather long way
To the office.
The boy done wrong again
He sold us all a lie
And now he's off down the road
On his three wheeler bike.
The boy done wrong again
All we want is the truth
And maybe a refund
But what is the use?
That boy's on the wrong path
He's off on the warpath
Burning bridges
Like its a game of chess
But who'll get the last laugh
When he's up to his neck?
Thursday, March 18, 2004
Simon, are you married to work again?
Does your wife stay up all night
Wondering where you've been
Wondering who you've seen
But you know where you're heading
Little wonder everyone
Only gets in the way.
Annibel, shake another hand
Smile and breathe another lie
You now understand
And it's driving you mad
Isn't it so sad
That progress get's you nowhere
If you're tethered to the land.
Little boy, on your bicycle
Through the rubble strewn streets
Do you wonder where the cars have gone?
Or if they'll be back again
And why the nights run so long.
In the silence hum your song
Between the chorus of the guns
Just to keep the monsters at bay.
Anthony, lawyer proffessing
Another knowitall,
Standing round confessing
To all you've been molesting
Their very way of life
Just another way to strike out
Against the looming void
You always seem so small.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
When the curtains close
With their familiar hiss
When times starts to miss
In it's glacial flow
Light flashes on inside
And eyelids shutter out
Sanity has naught to shout
About, the mind-releasing ride
Till the working day hum
Is reduced to a murmur
A screaming lemure
With some mouldy stick gum
Caught in its feral grip
Beady eyes blood
Shot, tears of mud
And on the clock ticks
Neither knowing or caring
In the land of the living.
Along the chest crawling
With slowness deliberate
Seeking to contemplate
The moments drawing
Tantalising near
Broken bones
Broken homes
Feeding on the fear.
Mouth agaping mess
Snarling or smiling
Always reviling
Those not snatched by death
Alive and twisted
Twisting perception
Jagged ganglion
Sweat marianaded.
All the better for eating.
Till curtains open
And lights breathe on
And on the clock ticks
Neither knowing nor caring
In the land of the breathing
Are you afraid of your reflection
When it is right before your eyes?
Do you run from every chasm?
Is the darkness your surprise
When it's rising up to greet you
With its life enscorceling grasp?
Do you wonder every breath you take
If it is going to be your last?
You cannot outrun the inevitable
Until it gets you, you don't know that it is
Standing on a cliff-top
With a loaded double-barrel
Has no guarentee to give.
Sunday, March 07, 2004
Someone's laughing
'Cause I'm new at being me.
Someone's behind me
And I know it to be true
Seems like a shadow
Always comes my way
Just when I'm getting used to
The sun.
Sometimes the wind
Seems to blow in my face
Even when I turn
And walk the other way.
Sometimes I hear voices
Calling my name
But I can never hear what they say
To me.
They're felling a grove
Just beyond the back fence.
It's been around
A thousand years or so.
But somebody
Just moved in
And it's spoiling the view
In the twilight.
Pick-up lines
Are a slap in the face.
A shape on the doorstep,
Bearing roses and dreams.
Sometimes a perfect evening
Is a nightmare come true
Because nothing is what it seems
To be.
The music's too loud
And it's killing my ears
Just another mix
Of rythm and death.
But on the bus home
It's my own little world
As transient and fragile as breath
In the wind.
Don't listen to the doorman
He's away on drugs
He's getting them cheap
If he fixes you up
And smoking will kill you
If society won't
Or you don't find your solace in a cup
Or a rope.
Undenied
Underpaid
It seems that you'll finally
Get your own way.
Till the reforms come through
And you're out of a job.
You never should have
Spoken up.
The weather is fine
But it may piss down
Any minute now
Did you bring an umbrella?
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Are the bandaid To staunch The bleeding heart.
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How many Reformed people does it take to change a light bulb? CHANGE!?! Begone heretic!