A good evening
Remember the cost
Of being who you are.

Where do we stand?
It's all lines in the sand
The sea washes it all away
If we only wait long enough

Don't be fooled
It will be the same
The next time and the next
Running your name
Through the mud

Ice
Is N-lessly
Nice

Dance where the rivers collide
Place your feet in the fire
Music will carry you through

Time is heavy

Over and Up: Thanks

Such a year it has been
Like a subterranian dream
Life has spun out its threads
And here I am stuck
Like a spider in his own web
So many people make it special
And comb their beauty through and through
Met some new ones, seen some old ones
And learned much of myselfness too.
Then there are a precious few
Like golden filament strung through
My tatterdermalion web
If I said all I can,
It would be not enough said
Suffice to say
Thank you. Meeting you
Has made my year
Has made my life
Something special, something new
You are each a single golden tear
Dappling on my foolish cheek
The simple fact, you being near
Has rendered me content, complete.

It Was Me

It was we merry fools who set
The noontide devil free
Was it pride or was it folly?
Wearing strength upon our sleeves
Hiding weakness in our hearts.

It was I who looked and fled
From safety's stately bonds
Beneath the dawn of troubled sky
Pregnant curling fronds
Pulling gently me apart.

It was we foolish ones who took
The world into our sorry hands
Breathing hard with eagerness and shook
Our very heartsblood out in straggling bands
Titanic from the very start

Oh stary night of eyes so bright
How we long to look on you once more
With clean unfettered gaze
Oh hallowed moon in lushness looming
Like the sun upon our darkened days
What have we become?

It was we merry fools who turned and set
The noontide devil footloose, free
Who turned upon ourselves to seek
A happiness that could never be

Eyes

Feeling blue
One and one
Makes two

There were lights in the sky
That time way back when
Hope blossomed eternal
And hung twinkling in the ink
Life hung easy on our shoulders
We were who we still are
Statues in the rain

Don't fade into the clinging mists
Or be swallowed up by uncertainty
Put the green eyed monster down

Sermon

I cannot find
The pure mind
Distractions
Sneak right in

We are children
You and I
Holding hands
Against the moment
To scared to watch
The seconds die

Ball

Trust the dance
Your feet know what to do

Heartbeat

Alone, alone, alone
The muffled thump
His still beating heart
Ringing through his bones

Alone, alone, alone
The rhythm of isolation
He sat and counted
Every solitary second

Alone, alone, alone
Warm blood rushing
Cool veins, like chill wind
Through his hollow home

Alone, alone, alone
A clock keeps steady track
Not one second passes back
Hear the solid, saddened tone.

Alone, alone, alone
The muffled whisper
The smile of a lost child
Forevermore. Alone.

Sometimes what you want
And what you want
Are two opposite things.

To Catch A Dream

Fall asleep so slowly
Swimming through silk
Tasting the day's retreat
On the buds of the minds eye
Roll us all another one
You make the paper stick
Better than most
Head lolling hard against
The scatter-grain boards.

What passes for humour in these parts
Is the taste of sad tomorrows.

Taste the marrow of the sun
We'll burn for it before we're done
But wasn't it delicious fun
Run the run, run the run
Footsteps racing for the gun

A ball

Had a ball
Had a ball

Find a way
Faithfullness
On the stones
Your feet find you on

Jerusalem under a setting sun
Troubles melt like springtime
Bathed in the new and old
I let the sand pile up in my room.

Tread the streets in sandaled feet
Smile at everyone you never meet
Buy bread under a tent
My house is made up of bones

Sealed with a bronze kiss
She fights fires in her spare time
And turns gold into lead
Dragging her heels like a champion.

I found a whole hat full crazy.
Whoopee.

All talk and ossified
We retread the same ground tonight
Step on in, slip on knives
There's fresh blood if you need it.

So eager to prove
How much you suck
With nothing to lose
And noone to choose
You choose not-you.

We broke and froze in place
I was lost in the shadows in your eyes
You were trying just to hide the time
Afraid that mirror would break

You remind me of someone so far away
Still reeling like a shattered drunk
Still feeling like a tattered dump
Hiding hurt in what you say

It's inside out
And back to front
Sweater girl
Your tag is showing
You hope you're going
On a train
On a plane
But you can't outrun
The pain.

Some people give up on themselves
When things get hard
But you never believed in you
From the very start.

All dressed up for a walk
That car cut you down low
Sliced your way through the glass
Shook you up and took you down

Now look you're such a mess
Hanging half apart half intact
All dressed up for a walk
There's no looking back.

A gimpy poem that I don't really like

Sow the seeds to life
Holding still inside the light
Back and forth tonight
A heart is pacing out of sight
Behind the statue, beside the knife.

It's not enough
To smile and wave
And carry the shovel
A hole to hell.

Spider spider
Spinning webs
Through the night
Wrap me up
Safe and tight

The Devil knows
When the door
Slides slowly closed
He shuffles his feet
And smiles from the shadows.

Don't be afraid
God hangs over you
Like a cloud of promise
The certainty, inevitability
Of a first kiss.

And behold the sons of the yeast
Didst rise up against the sons of Israel

Riding off into the sun
Won't keep you warm forever.

Brain Block

He could no more ply words
Than think thoughts rich and deep
To note the oils of a moment
When indecision falls asleep

The Doubt

He visited him in the doubt
When the day brought
All the old daggers out
On the fleece
Between the trees
The rain
Was falling.

Wash yourself
From the past
The clinging mud
Slips off
Bathe in the river
He pours the wine
Come and be cleaned
Be warmed be filled
Wash yourself
From the past
And go on
As light.

Well the war's coming
Showering down like moondust
Radiating happiness and guns
Happiness and perfect circles
Bombs make children run for cover
Bare feet running through the streets
Like startled deer have no fear
No one's gonna make ends meet

Well the war's coming
It takes our men and spits out
Perfect little machines
Weapons in their heads and guns
They'll kill us all before they're done
But don't be sad they won't feel bad
It's all the brainwashing they've had
Shoot up a family and back home for tea
Life in a warzone's such a treat.

Well the war's coming
Peddling food like gold and jewels
People lining up like painted fools
So so easy, blow them greasy
Win the war and take the oil
Win the war and take the victory
Maybe hang it up there on the wall
That way everybody wins
Because it's the memories that count
And dead people don't remember.

Walkway to a Smile

It shines like justice
Through bits and pieces
Trusts and doubts
Cross my heart
And know I'll smile
Next time you and I
Cross eyes.

It's dark in that cold corridor
Why won't you come on in?

I wish I could wake up in the morning
At peace
In pieces
It would be worth it.

What is an Eagal?

He folds his socks
Like he will never wear them again

Green tea with ginger and lemon and a dash of honey

Is like drinking a hug.

Sometimes my heart swells
Like a lead balloon

Some things are hard:

Opening Up
Letting Go
Saying Goodbye

Sit there waiting
For the blow
The suckerpunch

When all is made clear
Trust is baring wrists
For the bloody knife

Yet trust is
The EXIT sign
The fire escape
The rickety bridge
To hope and life.



Some things will be hard.
And they always were and are
Rubbing palms on rough wood
The price is splinters
For warmed hands.



Feel the spaces inbetween
The thoughts defining life and dream
How much of last night's imaginings
Are todays relentless fears?

Why are thoughts
So relentlessly confusing?

Time makes fools of us all

Star singing
Preserves the quiet night.

Handshakes
Family dies in housefire
Truck crosses the desert plain
Laughter
Missiles destroy neighbourhoods
Children starve in Africa
Calm
Hurricane flattens city
Earthquake shatters lives
Outside
Inside.

Hidden

Under the makeup
Beneath the eyeliner
Through the skin
Tears are hiding
Clear and pure
Glistening like
Drops of heaven
Heaving against
Their silken prison
Under the false-face
The real one is crying
But she won't let
Those tears run free
She won't let
Them turn and see
How deep the wounds run.

Don't give up
Walking in the sunlight
Just because
It hurts your eyes.

Broken Compass

It's hard being
A broken compass
Point hanging askew
People ask
"Are you OK?"
You lift your steely gaze
And say

"I'm a broken compass
I can't do nothing right!
What is the point?"

But you're still you
Point hanging askew
All steel and cold
And hurting through and through

You just need to be held
In a warm hand
Reattached and realigned
And you'll be drawing
Perfect circles again.

Skirt the edge
Flirt disaster
One slip up
One foot wrong
And you are falling
Tumbling down
The rabbit hole

You are my strength.

Celebrities

We cut them
And hate them
For not bleeding gold.

Untitled

It tastes like summer
And smells like rain
It punches holes
All through your brain
Addition to the
Sweeter pain
Do it again
Do it again
I dare you!


Smile like you mean it
Or atleast pretend
To pretend to care
Bulletproof and battlescarred
Trigger shy and scared
Cut me down
Shoot me up
You know I'll risk my arm again.

Or something

It's not that I don't trust you
I just care too much to see you hurt.

Broken dream heart scream
Shake hands with the devil
Don't think I won't worry
About you.

Heartstop moment.