Hill To Die On

We all die
On hills painted white
With the memory of a stain
That lies
On the line of the future

Old ties
Are bleached in the sun
Weaker than a memory
But cut
Deeper than a dream

We all try
Clutching at half-hearted straws
What counts is falling short
To lie
Bloodied on some lost hill

How we got here
Hangs like importance
But our feet don’t know
The way home
There is no looking back

Asking why
Was nothing at the time
Just slippery seconds
Passing by
Too fast to count

We all try
With maybes in our belts
And daydreams in our coats
Stained white
With the memory of the future

The Old Man

I am the cancer
That creeps
With sickly green fingers
And teeth
I am the shadows
Behind closed eyelids
I am the whispers
When nobody hears
I am you
When the coast is clear

Before everything
Changed
Way back when girls
Just had longer hair
Simplicity

Violence is future proof
Change will take us through the roof

Wrecking Ball

It's knockdown town
That keeps you humble
Ears on the ground
And out of trouble
Grind you up
Grind you down
Step over the rubble
It's only up from here
We're at gutter level
Next stop stars...

Trust

It's all about
Placing your feet
In someone else's hands

Feet

Please don't cut yourself crying
It's a long unsteady step from normal
Bruises can hide beneath long sleeves
At least until someone reaches out
They touch you when you aren't ready
So you bite and fight and pull away
But they care enough to suffer
And you're worth enough to recover
Please don't cut yourself down
You aren't hanging from a cross
But from our waiting arms.

Fair Weather Friend Falls in Hard Times

If you face me I am not there
Bones of smoke and ashes
When I smile don't think I care
I'm gonna light you on fire
I'm gonna burn you up to the sky
I'm gonna sell your soul
And I will feel bad for a time
But the others they will make me whole

You seem so sad lately
Don't show me your tears
I am the life in your second breath
I am not there
I am not there

Giving up the Anger

Do you wake up into mess
Feel the seething anger in your bones
Stoke the flames
Stoke the flames
Perhaps you will burn up
And your cooling ash will know
The healing touch of breeze

I'm gonna hold my name
And float into an apple
Don't be sad it's who you are
You may feel bad about it
But I'm better off
Dead
At least I have my name

All love stories
For better or worse
End in the dark

Tokyo drifter
Remind me of what you believe
Wearing your heart on your sleeve
You are invincible
And humble

Tokyo sifter
Home is a no man's land's home
Beneath the starsets you roam
You are invisible
And able

To piece together the dark
To hold yourself up to the light
You are the teeth of the shark
The taste of a fright
Tokyo drifter

Love is

To know
And to be known

Thismorning I woke up
With the phrase
"Crunchy brown screams"
On repeat in my head.
I musta had some pretty strange dreams.

It's lonely in the quiet times
Between the days of students
Where it's just me
And the hum of a laptop
With a screen that refuses to work
It leaves me feeling so...
Incomplete

You Cannot Beat the Never Man

I could die a million deaths
Just to breathe a single breath
Cauterise my last regrets
Equalise my unpaid debts
Still it wouldn't be enough
Still I wouldn't measure up
I can never outshine him
He never even existed.

I love the sound
Of your mind
Hitting the paper
You put the world
So beautifully
When you don't
Lose yourself
In giving up.

Not even you
Has the right to
Treat yourself that way

Tired

Mummy come and take me home
I can’t look you in the eye
I don’t want to fall no more
I just want to fly

Sleep alights on tired wings
Exhaustion is my sigh
It’s dark and cold, so full of fear
A wandering am I

Mummy hold me in your arms
I remember them so well
Warm and strong and always there
To catch me when I yelled

Mummy I can’t hold my wings
No matter how I try
I don’t want to fall no more
I just want to fly

I don't dream any more
They only tell me
What I already know

I'm so tired
Of tired.

He falls like a flood
Everytime
Hits the dirt
Turns to mud
Everytime
Suck you in
Bring you down
He falls like a flood
And washes himself away

I love it when you find a song that sings your heart for you

I've been thinking
You never lie
You never tell the truth
So neither will I
Beneath this stale horizon
I wash my face
And watch my place

For some people the bladder is half empty
For others the bladder is half full...

Dear Karen, seeing as you are one of the few people who bother to follow my blog. Yes you. You know who you are. No not the person behind you. You.

If the first day
Is the worst day
Happy Birthday
Any way

Now you're older
Agent Mulder
From the X Files
Isn't gay

Or something.

Animals in Danger of Extinction

like the shoulder mounted weinershnitzle

or the stress-related fracture monkey

or the lesser spotted waffle hound

let us not forget

the purple-headed weiner toad

These streets
Chalk tile, gum pocked
Grey
Carve names
In invisible ink
To the souls of your feet

"Remember me
When you pass my way
No more."
Calling with the memory
Of stone, cut, carved
Forgiving
Like the rain that keeps
It clean.

Heartscream
Inside
Where the crack-jawed teeth
Open wide
Swallow you down whole
Chew you up
Left for dead with papercuts

The man in the fall
Was the weakest of all

Dumb dumb
Dumb dumb
Dumb dumb
My heart
Tells me
Dumb dumb
Dumb dumb
The truth.

Hello you
Gonna beat me black and blue
Gonna cut me through and through
Pass the glue
Pass the sword hack me clean in two
Carve me up just like you know you do
Serve me up till you are amused

Warning signs
I did't listen to the radio
It's a bad time
To be listening to yourself alone
Open season
Everyone gets a gun
Nobody wins.